Interview part. 2

A little about me

The reasonable man adapts himself to the conditions that surround him… The unreasonable man adapts surrounding conditions to himself… All progress depends on the unreasonable man.’ – George Bernard Shaw

Hello lovely folks out there. Hope this post finds you well. I thought it was probably time for another interview with myself. Mainly for myself to take stock of where I am and how things are going, so here it goes. (Kenan and Kel flashback: Just in case you’d like to relive it. I just did.)

Me: Welcome back!

Metoo: Why thank you, its rather nice to be here, where ever we are pretending here is.

Me: Well, we could say we were anywhere right? So I’ll say we are in a tree house, in a Scandinavian Forest, at dusk.

Metoo: nice.

Me: so how are things? Whats the craic?

Metoo: you know what, mad busy. But great! I feel like I’m on an accelerated learning curve at the moment and everyday just seems to throw another great opportunity to take something from. Which is great, but I have not stopped. Saturday was the first day in about 3 months where I just stayed at home. With no plans. Did nothing. It was bizarre. I felt the need to schedule my free time… I worry myself sometimes. 

Me: you worry me too. You need to learn how to relax and appreciate the down time. Whats been keeping you busy?

Metoo: Well as I previously mentioned, I’m planning on leaving my current job in September, so I have been racing against myself to have a bunch of things to do then. I’ve also been socializing a hell of a lot. Specifically, I’ve been going to a bunch of Esc the City events, for whom I now guest blog and help host events, which has been awesome. I’ve also been looking for work that inspires me. So applied to a cool start up, looked internally where I am, for a role more suited to what I want to do (education based), chatting to all my wonderful friends about my ideas etc. Reading a shit ton. Like I can’t actually read enough right now. I’m writing this post as efficiently as possible so that I can get in a solid hour of bedtime reading.

Me: geeze. do you ever stop?! What are you reading at the mo/have you read in the last few weeks?

Metoo: Well I’m currently reading Thrive by Arianna Huffington which is amazing. Packed full of wisdom about how to redefine success (so far I have taken 3 things from the book. meditate, sleep and walk; maybe basic, but completely underestimated and wonderfully simple to incorporate in to our lives). I just finished Creativity Inc. by Ed Catmull the co-creator of Pixar. Seriously, it is now my management ideal bible. If I never read another management book again it will be ok, because this defines the environment I want to work in and cultivate where ever I end up. I also finished Sane New World by Ruby Wax and the Escape Manifesto by the guys who set up Escape the City. Another 2 exceptional reads. I really need to get back into reading some fiction though. So once I’m done with Thrive and then Risk by Dan Gardner :$ I will be taking a little break from non-fiction.

Me: dare I ask whats on your reading list at the mo…?

Metoo: seriously do not. There are about 40 books on there right now and I keep adding to them. I downloaded 5 more books on to my nook over the weekend. I have a habit. I need help. Is there a self help group for obsessive readers? :S But as a little sneaky teaser (mainly because I’m lazy and may never get round to writing blog posts for them all, soz guys.) I will be reading A Moveable Feast by Earnest Hemingway, Margrave of the Marshes by John Peel, One Hundred Years of Solitude by Gabriel Garcia MarquezThe Art of Learning by Josh Waitzkin and On the Shortness of Life by Seneca… after Risk… at some point. Maybe I need to take a year out of life and just read solidly.. is that a thing?

Me: erm… it is a thing. But most people will judge you and think you’re a bat shit cray my friend. Listening to you is exhausting! Does your mind ever stop?

Metoo: No. not really!

Me: hmm. what do you do to relax?

Metoo: well I started yoga this year which has been utterly trans-formative. It opened up the door to meditation and general connecting the mind and body so I really hope to continue/increase my practice A LOT. I am currently appallingly inflexible. Boo. Also I listen to a lot of music. Omg. you musttttt check out some Nils Frahm. Seriously. Stop what you are doing right now and listen to this:

Nils Frahm- Says

Me: okokok! I’m listening…..

Dam. I have no words.

Metoo: I know. I KNOW. He is playing the Barbican in the Autumn and the tickets are sold out. I am gutted. Oh one other weird thing. Or at least everyone I’ve told seems to think its weird. I’m considering/am planning on going on a 10 day silent meditation retreat later this year. Where you meditate for 10 hours a day… you don’t speak to anyone else. You aren’t even allowed to bring writing/reading materials with you.

Me: not going to lie. sounds freaking weird bud, like you’re torturing yourself. Why are you going doing this?

Metoo: well. I want to learn to meditate. Well. Intensively. The more you do it the better, you can’t over meditate. So the discipline of the center will force you to be comfortable with yourself, face the parts of yourself that you usually mask or run away from. I’m curious more than anything…

Me: ohh kayyyyyy. well you let me know how that goes won’t you!

Metoo: of course 🙂

Me: a couple of final questions my friend. 1. How are you feeling about all the imminent changes about to happen in your life? 2. Is there anything you’re going to miss about this old life?

Metoo: hmm. well 1. How I’m feeling now is approx. 70%- relief/excitement/enthusiasm and 30%- like I’m standing on the edge of cliff about to jump off, not knowing if I’m going to figure out a way to sprout wings before I hit the ground. It’s completely exhilarating and nerve wracking in equal measure, but I feel that I’m slowly getting addicted to that bizarre feeling. So much so that I try to do something that scares me each day and I deliberately do things differently just to see what happens. It’s fun. 🙂 for example I gave away an £80 ticket to Blogstock today for free to a lovely lady who I spotted on Twitter who wanted to go and could no longer afford it. Felt right. What can I say. Sure its a bit mental. But as a wise friend always reminds me; ‘It’s only money, right?’. Right. 2. I am going to sorely miss the people that have pulled me through the last few months. I am surprised each day by their kindness and wisdom and support. I give my firm something, they pick the good eggs. Other than that, honestly, no. The money, security, the kudos just doesn’t excite me. I’m worried about not having it, sure, but its not the end goal I want so it doesn’t motivate me at all. 

Me: I lied, one more question; What are you looking forward to over the next couple of months?

Metoo: Oh wow, so many things, Hanging out with my awesome comic book artist friend from the Backwards Burd guys this weekend to work on a little creative project, Transpride next weekend who another brilliant friend is co-organizing, Boomtown in a couple of weeks, working with the Escape the City team hosting and blogging. The list is endless! I’m lucky and happy and looking forward to blogging more too perhaps. Completely failing at the semi regular posts thing. You’re lucky if you get one a week out of me! I’ll try do better I promise 🙂

Me: I’ll hold you to that! As always its been grand. Oh god Nils Frahm, I think my life changed the moment I listened to that. It was tangible. WAIT can we have a picture of you? Can we oh can we?!

Metoo: and you think I’m dramatic. Erm. ok Creepy McCreeperson:

Also RIMA

Me: ahhhh. Lovely. even if I do say so myself. Till next time! 🙂

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Let me introduce myself

A little about me

“The reason I talk to myself is because I’m the only one whose answers I accept.” – George Carlin

So, I feel its time to get to know me a little better. I am, as many of us claim to be, appalling at writing about myself (see unfinished CV, even though I am leaving my job in September, a story for another time). What is it that we all struggle with? I can’t put my finger on it exactly, but there is a certain pressure when we try to define and summarise ourselves down to a page, or a snappy, witty paragraph in the ‘about me’s of our blogs.

I for one get mental constipation just at the thought of it. I don’t particularly want to put myself into a self-defined box.What if I leave something out or the phrasing makes me out to be something I am not? Surely I am more than a page of self indulgent chatter, I must be more complicated!

Part of the reason I feel, is these sorts of self summaries are always for someone else, a potential employer or potential readers out there in the internet ether, so inherently susceptible to approval or rejection.  Also, what if I don’t actually know myself very well yet, what then? I can feel the anxiety bubble up already, just thinking about it.

So a slightly different approach is in order perhaps. I am going to interview myself for you all. Wait.. before you click away.. I get that it sounds a lot like I will be talking to myself, oh wait it definitely is exactly that. So click away if that’s not your bag. I tell you for why I’m doing it this way. 1. I hope I’m not alone, but often I feel very much like I am 2 people. So why not get one to interview the other? 2. When thinking about what I’d write, it seemed to flow far better than just trying to write a traditional ‘about me’. 3. It leaves it open to conduct further interviews to delve in a bit deeper. 4. I’d like to get to know myself better too! So, why not try it ey. Here goes.

Me: So who are you then?

Metoo: Hello! I’m Rima, 24 years old, soon to be ex-accountant, living in London.

Me: Ok so, pretty standard stuff. Why ex-accountant?

Metoo: Ahh its all a bit cliche to be honest with you, but I pretty much fell into this job, and now I am fully qualified, surprise surprise, It’s dawning on me that being an accountant/auditor is not really my life long ambition. I’ve tried the corporate world and you know what, its not for me. I don’t fit in here I don’t think.

Me: I hear a lot of this kind of chat from people in your position. People don’t seem to be content with the well paid, but high stress lifestyle so much anymore.

Metoo: Yea, agreed. We all wanted the money and the power and respect, and now we have a slice of it, not really sure it’s what we wanted at all!

Me: This blog seems to be a fairly new project (June 2014), what made you start?

Metoo: Well part of being in a job like mine is that you feel quite trapped by the skills you’ve acquired thus far and feel that you can’t do anything remotely different. Also, it seems to sap all creative energy and will from you so you both think you can’t be creative and also don’t feel you have the time or energy to even try. So I thought a blog would help me flex my creative muscles, and prove to myself that if I put my mind to it, I can 100% do it.

Me: Nice. But what is the point of your blog?

Metoo: What do you mean? Why do I write it? Or why do I think people should read it?

Me: both!

Metoo: Well I write it to practice writing, to record my memories and thoughts and feelings at a point in time, to share cool things that I think others may enjoy, to question my own opinions too perhaps. As for readers, I include a lot of reviews of stuff that have particularly enjoyed so hopefully others can get inspired to experience similar things! I’m a sharer! I’d like to also dissect some philosophy here too at some point. So would be cool to interact with folks.

Me: That’s a lot you want to do there bud. Anything you think will be a barrier for you getting this done?

Metoo: Erm… myself! Probably the biggest stumbling block of all. I guess until September time is a little limited. Work is a massive part of life at the mo. Honestly though, its only really me that will get in my way, if for some reason I lose the drive/motivation to keep going. Other than that full steam ahead!

Me: Well my advice would be to just do it. Start and don’t stop. What sort of things are you interested in and may write about?

Metoo: Simple enough advice to give ey! Interested in.. hmm…too many things!! By that I mean that there is a lot that excites me. Including travel, philosophy, yoga, mental health, books, art, film, music, poetry, business, sanskrit, dance, languages, people, food. Most of these I am a complete novice at, so am aiming to get a better understanding of all of them over time. I will post my bucket list up here at some point maybe. Give you a better idea.

Me: What is the dream?

Metoo: Arghh big questions dude! Well this is what I am in the progress of working out. However, I listened to some sound advice recently, to be micro ambitious. So, I think I will set myself varying small and medium sized goals regularly. At the mo, yoga, reading, travel plans, learn Spanish/German are high up the list. Also, finding a source of income for when I am unemployed in Sept!

Me: What are your greatest fears?

Metoo: oh man. really, enough with the personal questions? I guess a couple of things. 1. I am a serious people pleaser! So a fear of being disliked. I like to be liked. I’m not particularly ok with people just disliking me. I’m pretty annoyingly positive and enthusiastic sometimes and worry that people think to themselves.. ‘omg.. seriously just pipe down.. no-one cares’. 2. Being a burden on anyone else. I am fiercely independent so would hate to have to rely on anyone else. 3. Seriously FOMO. I know, I’m sorry, I said it, I had to. Its a frustratingly appropriate acronym and I hate myself for using it. I just do worry that life is so dam short, if I spend a single minute, hour, day not in the pursuit of my many, varying passions that I will miss out on the wonders that our planet has to offer. One reason I must quit the corporate milk round. That about covers the main ones.

Me: I feel that we have learned a fair about about us. A lot still to go, but a break perhaps. 20 year old us would have been astonished at how easily and quickly we just managed to bash out 1218 words.

Metoo: Yea wow. Fair play. A fan of this interview style, as crazy as it makes me seem! Until next time!

RP

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